Hokey Pokey Anonymous, a place to turn yourself around.

I feel like I'm part of Hokey Pokey Anonymous,  I have embarked a silly life of turning myself around... sometimes it's so painful and annoying that I just have to laugh.  I usually cry before I laugh, but really this whole ordeal is so ridiculous!
We went to Tucson last weekend to take my son to camp.  We decided to visit my husbands cousin (who's more like a brother) while were were there.  So we left Saturday, and went to the Tucson Childrens museum first, has a great time then went back to our cousins home to get ready for a special dinner.  We went to dinner at Flemming's Steak House, a very upscale restaurant that we could never afford!  It just so happens that our cousin is the Chef Partner there and we were invited for dinner!  We were treated like rockstars!  As soon as we sat down (no wait!) we were brought lobster tempura and seared ahi tuna, then dinner was to die for and chocolate lava cake and pistachio ice cream!  Ummmmmmmmmmmmmm, sooooo yummy!!!  It was such a fun outing for me and the fam!  It must have been all the Shirley Temples and Roy Rodgers the kids drank because both of them stayed up past midnight being super silly.  We slept over and got up the next morning to take our boy to camp!  When we got to camp we checked it all out and then said goodbye (sniff, sniff) and headed home.   I have been recovering all week from last weekends adventures... and already, tomorrow we pick him up!
... so like I said, sometimes I just have to laugh at how ridiculous this fibro ordeal is!... Hence: Hokey Pokey Anonymous.

The Diagnosis

Tuesday I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia.  I am relieved and speechless all at the same time.  For over 10 years I have been extremely tired and always achy.  In the last 3 months my Dr. has been leaning towards Fibromyalgia.  Last week I went to the Doc because my arms were numb, tingling and in pain plus the rest of my body was achy and sore and my fatigue had the best of me.  Doc put me on medical leave and instructed me to go to a Rheumatilogist and a counselor STAT.  The Rheumatologist confirmed fibro, and what I am experiencing now is a fibro-flair up.  In my case it is stress induced.  The counselor wants me to eliminate things in my life that cause stress.  The rheumatologist wants me to relax and go get massages every week, my doc wants me to take a new med that is supposed to help with fibro.  All of this is really overwhelming and really does not seem do-able.  No one can tell me how long this flair will last, so far it has been 12 days.  In fact, the 5 minutes I have been typing has been really hard and I'm leaning towards taking a break....
I am 34 years old, married and I have 2 active children.  I work at a busy elementary school as the school secretary.  How on earth can I eliminate anything?  I LOVE my job, I joke that I came with the building... I have been there as long as the school has been open, almost 8 years!  My family is my number 1 priority!  I can't not support my son and his baseball schedule, I can't not put my daughters hair in pigtails.  BUT everything is so hard.  How do I find balance?  My home has been neglected for almost 2 weeks, dishes, clutter, laundry, dust.  I am a clean freak and I just cant muster up the energy to do something about it... the condition of my home is really stressing me out!  The counselor said to do things to help relieve stress... cleaning and crafts are the things that mellow me out.  An impossible thing when your arms are numb and your body aches all over and your soooo tired.  I am in such a FUNK right now.  My head is telling me to get over this and snap out of it... but my body just won't listen!  I can't let this get the best of me.