Nightmares

Last Thursday was back to school night at the kids school, my old work, and Monday was their first day of school.  Since Thursday I have noticed myself hurting more and more, thinking it was just the stress of a new school year for the kids and starting up a new routine.  Last night, I tossed and turned with muscle spasms, anxiety, body aches and NIGHTMARES.  When I woke up this morning it was apparent to me that I need to start taking this PTSD seriously and realize that it effecting my well being.  My kids will go to school for a long, long time and I will be going to the school at least twice a day for pick up and drop off, never mind the classroom volunteering that I soooo wish to do.  If I don't start getting to the root of all this then I don't think my fibro will ever be manageable.  I have always just shrugged the whole PTSD theory off, I mean, I know in my head that my irrational worries are stupid.  BUT, it is still effecting me to the point of severe pain!  OMG!!!  This is not a "mind over matter" situation, at least, not without the right help.